im upset

you wanna know why? ok, here's why. i have this friend who is so fond of saying negative things about other people. at first it was fun listening to him, but as days passed, i started to get to know this person and i realized that i hate him, not that there's nothing good about him, ofcourse there is, but its just some of his attitutes like selfishness, insulting people up front which is most often than not is sooo uncalled for, it's like you're just sitting in one corner minding your own business, and then this person will come up to you and say this mean things then act as if nothing happened afterwards. without even taking the time to think if what what he said was hurful or insulting. for him, that's just normal, for him, that's nothing out of the ordinary, but hell no! screw him. all he thinks of is himself! he completely disregars other people's needs & feelings. well i hope you guys would agree to me when i say that that is Bullshit!

and im not the only one who thinks this way about him, in fact everybody in our group feels the same way about him, they totally agreed with me when i blurted out my feelings the other day. and not only this, his extreme selfishness bothers me too, like, when he asks us for a favor we would do it all out for him, but when its your turn to ask for one, he would totally turn you down without a blink of an eye, man that's cold! and when he borrows stuff and wears 'em in school, he wud say that it looks so much better on him than the owner, which is some what implying that when the owner is the one wearing it he looks like shit?! come on! the nerve, even if its true, its completely rude to say it, and one more thing, he doesn't know how to return stuff!!!!!! what is that?!!!!! and when ur the one who's gonna borrow from him, he wouldnt let you, he'd make up all sorts of excuses!!! he's full of shit! and i hate him! really i do!!! and the way he treats us and talks to us, man!!!! its like he's some sort of a goddess or whatever! (by the way he's gay) its like he's full of frustrations and insecurities that the only way to lift himself up to insult other people to bring them down so that he can feel good about himself. are u guys still with me???

he's hurt me so much that i just cant think of a better way to treat him than to ignore him. and thats what im doing right now. im totally not talking nor throwing a glance at him, im acting as if he doesnt exist. cause i cant take it anymore, i am beyond cutting him slack guys, ive had it with him, and now i think its time to teach him a lesson. he knows how mad i am at him, and he even said sorry with matching teary eyes, but i dont know, knowing how mad i am and the reasons why i am, for me that's not enough! i dont know if im so harsh with him, im usually not like this, but for me, i dont wanna hear any sorries nor apologies, for me changing the things we hate about him would be enough for me to forgive him, i mean, duh?! ok, ill forgive him, and things will go back to how it was, but what if he does it again??? imma hit him for all he's worth for sure, coz i cant take no more insults especially from him, so i think if he will learn to get his selfishness out of his system, and he's being brutally frank and he's complete disregard for other people feelings thats the only time that imma forgive him, but now, sorry is not good enough! i dont care how long it takes, i just want him to change. i hope you guys agree with me on this... thanks for taking the time to read.... till next, have a great day, and oh, if u have friends like this, teach them a lesson, they HAVE to stop!!!

2nd day of Simbang Gabe

hiya there! i deleted my old posts... coz... daym their old! lolz, anywayz, let me proceed.
2day is the secend day of simbang gabi... and man! i was there! lolz, coz u see, me and my boyfriend has this thing going on for almost 4 years now... at every start of it we always vow to ourselves and have this agreement that we'll complete the 9 mornings and wish that our relationship will stand the test of time.... and i think its always comin' true coz we're still together, *high five everyone!* anywayz, 2day our friends attended the mass coz we asked them too, it was nice seeing them all together in one place. i missed them a lot, coz everything has been hectic for the longest tym, each of us minding their own business, trying to accomplish things and coz of this, we havent really had time to get together and chill.

well, after the mass we all went to this store and bought puto bumbong, im tellin yah' simbang gabi wont be complete without it. we had so much fun eating, joking around, catching up with each other's lives, the kantsawaan was back, the kulitan, the never ending stotries, barahan (w/c is just for fun) and everything. and before we knew it, the sun was already comin' up, coz u see, simbang gabi here is from 4am to 5am. but it wasnt reason enough for us to go home, we stayed there until 8 am in the morning. imagine? we were talking for three straight hours!!! and it felt like 10 minutes! daym i missed those times!!! anywayz, reality check came so we got up and went to different directions to deal with our everyday life.... but it was really fun.... and im kinda hoping we cud do it agen.. maybe tomorow or wherever... its funny though that years ago, that was just an ordinary thing for us, and now, its golden...

well its true that u wont know what ur missing till its gone.... but its not really gone... time is all we need... so till next tym... hope u liked what i wrote... and i suggest that u try to get in touch w/ ur friends again, and bring back what ur missing all this tym.... friends are like gold y'know..... well, true ones that is! have a great day u guys!!! =)