Beginning of an End

ACS Cabuyao….

how do i even begin?

man…. the pay was really bad… really bad.. not only was it 4 digits.. there were also discrepancies every pay day.. so u can just imagine… how extremely unsettling it was to look at ur pay slip come pay day… and see just how much… or… rather… how little u’ve earned on the last gruelsome 15 days of working…. Oh yeah!!! It sucks!!! but wait…. there’s more!!!

It gets worse… normally on any decent company… after 6 months of probation… ud be regularized and along w/ that comes the benefits of a regular employee…. but w/ ACS its not like that… once uve passed training… ull be deployed on the floor… assigned to a team… and that’s it… seriously…. that’s it!!! only the people who’s been there for 2 years or more gets regularized… twisted huh?! and for what… a 4 digit salary every 15th and end of the month….




BUT………. the big But… out of all the BUTS u can imagine is… how i was able to last in this company… for… wait for it….. 1 YEAR AND 2 MONTHS!! yes… thats how long i was with ACS.

the answer is really simple…

coz amidst all the chaos… the f*cked up management.…. the irate callers…. the disappointing compensation….

I have friends there… real friends…

Though we would always rant and complain about almost everything that this company has been depriving us of… We would all gather round the green bench at the Lung Center, during breaks, before or after shift… or sometimes during :)… and we would always find a way to laugh about it.

From complete strangers… to people u can’t honestly live without…
From Bosses to father and mother figures….
From Teammates to Brothers and Sisters….
From Officemates to Friends
From Drinking Buddies to Cliques
From simple get togethers… to treasured memories
From a simple Work Space…

• to where skills were honed
• bad experiences made into good
  
• where friendships were built
• a place where lifelong memories happened at its best

And now… it is the end of an Era… and what an Era it has been.. ACS Cab might suck in more ways u can imagine…. but when it comes to the people…. the camaraderie…. nothing beats ACS Cab… and no company even comes close…

I’ve been in a lot of call centers after ACS… and have met great people…. but in all honesty… i don’t know how else to say this… pero. Iba pa rin talaga ang ACS Cab.

To the current employees… this is just the beginning of an end… and w/ every story ending… comes a new beginning… on the 11th day of December… say ur goodbyes, walk out w/ ur head up high and remember… everything will be all good… BATANG ACS ata toh!

Hands Down...

hay.. eto nanaman. nakita kta. ewan ko ba.. i always have mixed emotions every time i see you. i have to admit… im never ever NOT happy to see you. maybe its because of the closeness that we have.. or how u act around me, or maybe there might be something there too.

i remember the last conversation that we had.. when u openly admitted how u felt… and how i was dumbfounded after u did.. its not that i don’t know.. or never expected u to say that.. but its the fact that after all these years.. u finally did… after years and years of denying it.. eventhough u always act like you do.. and though the conversation ended there.. honestly… i regreted not saying anything. and when i finally found the gutts to open up the topic after a few days.. u acted as if.. its not a big deal.. well maybe its not to you… but then… it was to me. but i didnt push the topic coz as expected.. u dodged it and that was my cue to stop.

but i dont know… once in a while… i would remember that conversation… and it would make me smile.. maybe coz its flattering to know that someone felt that way about me.. or maybe.. its been a while since someone did that… or maybe on the other end of the screen… there’s someone who maybe.. a little bit.. feels the same way..

but as always… its never the right time for us.. back then.. i had a boyfriend… and now… im in a place right now that i am happy where iam.

i wanted to say a lot of things to you.. i wanted to ask u some questions.. but my nerves got the best of me.. so i decided that some things are better left unsaid.. and convinced myself that it’s not the right time nor place or that ur no longer that into me, so i acted as if im w/ “just a friend” although we both know that we’ll always be more than that to eachother but time and circumstances never allowed us to go beyond… sucks right? but as they say… “there’s always a reason for everything.”

so there u go… our day ended… and nothing was cleared up… i didn’t get the answers that i needed.. coz i didn’t ask the questions. that is so me!

maybe im scared? maybe im not ready for the answers.. maybe if i get the answers that i need… i wouldn’t exactly know what to do w/ it.. so i think i did the right thing.. i think more than anything … the reason why i didn’t ask is because in someway… it might be just for self gratification..and that would be selfish. what if u told me that ur still into me?? would i say.. that i feel the same way? what if u told me.. u want to see and find out if the two of us might be right for eachother or not… would i say “that’s a good plan?” or “let’s have a go at it?” honestly i don’t know. and i might risk breaking ur heart again… and i would never want to do that ever again… maybe what happened was for the best…. i think?

but for what its worth… what im really sure of is… ur a great guy.. hands down…. one of the best guys i know actually.. and whichever girl u will end up with in the future… would be really…. really… sooooo lucky to have you.
but there’s a part of me that says… if u were able to finally admit now… how u felt for me back then… after years and years of denying…. shrugging the question… then maybe… now.. more than ever…. you’re finally over me…. and if that is the case…

im not sure how i feel about that either??

reunion w/ highschool friends

this was a couple of fridays ago.. stan picked me up around 2 pm… then we went to maf’s place @ pacita2… and then after that.. we decided that we would go to dampa for a bite… man! was that expensive… first u need to go to the market to buy ur food… then u need to find the resto that u’d want to cook for you… we bought 2 large pusits… tuna belly… and the other one… cant remember what type of fish it was… but it was made into sinigang… ansarap!!! grabe!!! as in!! mahal nga lang.

we took pics… kid around… chika.. mga eksena sa buhay ni tiya maffe… and mga kakirian ni stan.. ako.. ofcourse.. nakikinig.

after eating… we went to music 21… syala syalaang videoke bar… but not that expensive… its wer yuppies go… we stayed there and sang are hearts out…. man! that was fun… mga soundtrack ng aming life.. from upbeat songs… to senti ones… and not to mention songs from aegis… and ofcourse… yoyoy villame’s Butsikik! hahahahha! duet pa kaming tatlo don! that was the highlight of the day… next to that is when me and maf sang It’s All Coming Back by Celine D.

again… that was nice… i ended going home w/ a smile on my face… and knowing na kahit san kame mapadpad… whatever the chaos and the fcked up life we used to have… and whatever quarrels and disagreements and differences we had way back hs days… in our hearts…. kahit anong mangyare… magkakaibigan kame… and nothing can change that. :)

ayan.. basa basa pa kc e..

im online everyday.. effect ng pagiging stay at home mom.. eh wala akong magawa since na update ko na ata lahat ng dapat kong i update online.. nakapag reply na dn ako ng bonggang bongga sa mga blogs ng aking super friends d2 sa multiply.. and then may biglang nag pop up na msg na i have new mail daw.. o cge na patulan na.. binasa ko na.. maganda naman.. from baklitang joeven.. after reading it..i decided to clean up my inbox and create new folders that would segregate mails from friends and the ones that should be kept on file.. ayan boring na...

anywhoooo... ayun.. i ran into some emails from way back.. as in 2 years ago ata or less... tapos eto na.. i saw some emails from a certain "friend".. tapos syempre binasa ko.. wala lang una naaaliw pko. mga sagutan and kamustahan.. na may ksamang kulitan and everything. tapos dumating na don sa medyo alam mo na... basta un na un.. o cge na nga.. klig monuments.. may past kc kame nung "friend" na un... sort of.. pero ndi naging kame ha.. or oo ata.. ewan.. basta un na un..


readng those emails made me smile. it made me remember how things were between us. tapos may i enter pa ang bgla kong pag reminisce sa mga ym & phone conversations before that lasted until the wee hours of the day.. i think the longest we've had was 5 hours ata. we never ran out of things to talk about.. ni d namin napapansin oras.. magugulat na lang kame at ayan na ang tindero ng pandesal.. pumopotpot na. minsan nga maliwanag na,


the last mail i rcvd from him was october of 2006.. medyo nagbabay na kme sa isat isa non..things happened.. he was asking me why i needed to let him go.. pero ndi ko na inexplain.. malalaman nya dn sa takdang panahon.. (Big brother?!)


but well.. things are really different now.. i still see him online sa ym.. almost everyday.. but unlike before.. parang display na lang sya sa list of online buddies ko.. sometimes nababsa ko status nya.. nagdradrama.. ndi naman ako ng me msg kase for sure wala dn naman ako sasabihn. so ayun deadma sa earth.


anyway after reading the last of his emails.. i deleted them.. not because its a waste of space.. but because.. aanhin ko pa un? noon pa un e. wala na syang relevance sa buhay ko ngayon.. so why hold on to it..

time really changes everything.. we used to be a part of eachother's day and now.. wala... kiber kong online ka? i would be lying right now if i say na khit konti e ndi ako nalungkot. syempre kahit papano, in a way, slight, oo. pero ganun e..

hayz.. wala lang.. basa basa pa kc e....