i miss you. i really do.. the problem is u don’t know. and i dont think u will ever know.. because i won’t tell you.. and i choose not to tell you.. because im not yet ready for whats going to happen next if i tell u these three words.
its a good thing u dont read blogs.. coz otherwise… im busted… but who cares? maybe its a bad thing.. i don’t know.. im not sure.
all i know is I sometimes think of you.. I sometimes wish that i’m with you.. but thankful that im not.. coz atleast.. i just miss you.. just miss you.. anything more than that would be stressful for me. and that’s the last thing i need right now.
im not scared of u finding out how i feel.. im not scared of u possibly telling me that u’ve moved on and that u feel totally different now.. im ok w/u telling me that i had the chance before but chose somebody else over u.. by the way.. now more than ever… i realized that it was a mistake.. but also knows that everything happens for a reason. i know i blew it, and that it would take a lot from u to take a chance on me again.
im more scared of finding out that u actually do feel the same way.. coz then what? whatever situation it might bring us into.. i wouldn’t want.. coz im in a place right now.. where i dont really need anything romantic. im happy the way things are.
im happy being single.. stress free.. worry free.. no one to argue w/.. answer to.. everything’s well.. i don’t miss the cuddling.. the sweet nothings.. the i love you’s, roses. chocolates.. movie outs.. i dont need that right now.. unless it’s with you.
so there u go..
oh and before I end this.. i just want to thank you.. why? here’s why…
coz for the longest time.. ive shut myself from the possibility of actually liking or falling for someone.. because of the things that happened to me in the past. i feel like its just a waste of time, energy, and emotion.. till i saw u again.
i never thought that just the thought of someone would make me smile again.. feel butterflies in my stomach again and actually blush.. and u did all that w/ just two meetings.. so thank u.. thank u for that.
thank u for making me smile again.. that’s enough for now.
and if ever we will get together in the future…. hmmmm…. let’s see.
but right now.. i just want to smile.. and i mean really smile.. haven’t felt like doing that for a while..
so feel free to cross my mind anytime u want. 
until then…
