ayan.. basa basa pa kc e..

im online everyday.. effect ng pagiging stay at home mom.. eh wala akong magawa since na update ko na ata lahat ng dapat kong i update online.. nakapag reply na dn ako ng bonggang bongga sa mga blogs ng aking super friends d2 sa multiply.. and then may biglang nag pop up na msg na i have new mail daw.. o cge na patulan na.. binasa ko na.. maganda naman.. from baklitang joeven.. after reading it..i decided to clean up my inbox and create new folders that would segregate mails from friends and the ones that should be kept on file.. ayan boring na...

anywhoooo... ayun.. i ran into some emails from way back.. as in 2 years ago ata or less... tapos eto na.. i saw some emails from a certain "friend".. tapos syempre binasa ko.. wala lang una naaaliw pko. mga sagutan and kamustahan.. na may ksamang kulitan and everything. tapos dumating na don sa medyo alam mo na... basta un na un.. o cge na nga.. klig monuments.. may past kc kame nung "friend" na un... sort of.. pero ndi naging kame ha.. or oo ata.. ewan.. basta un na un..


readng those emails made me smile. it made me remember how things were between us. tapos may i enter pa ang bgla kong pag reminisce sa mga ym & phone conversations before that lasted until the wee hours of the day.. i think the longest we've had was 5 hours ata. we never ran out of things to talk about.. ni d namin napapansin oras.. magugulat na lang kame at ayan na ang tindero ng pandesal.. pumopotpot na. minsan nga maliwanag na,


the last mail i rcvd from him was october of 2006.. medyo nagbabay na kme sa isat isa non..things happened.. he was asking me why i needed to let him go.. pero ndi ko na inexplain.. malalaman nya dn sa takdang panahon.. (Big brother?!)


but well.. things are really different now.. i still see him online sa ym.. almost everyday.. but unlike before.. parang display na lang sya sa list of online buddies ko.. sometimes nababsa ko status nya.. nagdradrama.. ndi naman ako ng me msg kase for sure wala dn naman ako sasabihn. so ayun deadma sa earth.


anyway after reading the last of his emails.. i deleted them.. not because its a waste of space.. but because.. aanhin ko pa un? noon pa un e. wala na syang relevance sa buhay ko ngayon.. so why hold on to it..

time really changes everything.. we used to be a part of eachother's day and now.. wala... kiber kong online ka? i would be lying right now if i say na khit konti e ndi ako nalungkot. syempre kahit papano, in a way, slight, oo. pero ganun e..

hayz.. wala lang.. basa basa pa kc e....